eh...

shoot...I don't know what's wrong with me right now. I think i truly am just sick, man. Basically, "Eh" would define my day today.

so i went to economics and it was cool. It was pretty warm this morning though and that's all i really remembered. I came home ate my oatmeal and what not then i hit up the gym. Yet again another "eh" experience. Feels like i didn't put enough in to get out, ya smell me? Came home and i basically myspaced it/messed with the drums and keys ALL effin' day. In between i'd call a friend or dos to see what they were doing today and if they would like to include me in their plans.( "you have any plans today?...no?...wanna make some") <-inside joke. Anyway, that was a waste of time and my minutes. If anything, these kind scenarios like slap in the face somewhat. Cause it's like my friends that i was real tight with tight enough to be "brothers" perhaps don't seem to want me around anymore. Like when they talk to me it's so blantatly obvious that they've got something going on but just don't wanna let me in on the fun, you know what mean? I can't even chill anymore...in the good old days these n-words would be down to chill like ice cubes at any *emphasis on any* time of day. now i see these mugfluckas like once every two months. And really dough, we used to share everything, man like we had each others backs. Now duke wants to be like "nah you gotta put in now, man"...i don't know, man. shit was kinda suspect or maybe he was high already but in any case, they'd never ask for that type of input of cash before on some weed...why now?

Shit is changing, man. it really is. Black Thought(rapper of the Roots of course) said "Things fall apart and shit tends to shatter"...well cot damn if i didn't feel that way roight now. (you read right, roight). I'm sure a lot of you out there feel the same way. Like everything was in order for me like a year or two ago: i had a car, a girl, was ballin on the drums, everything was cool in the home, i had the cool ride, was good looking(at least felt like it). like i seriously felt on top of the world...now!?...i feel like there's nothing good going for me. i don't know why though?...haha i'm probably just PMS-ing but really though....but despite all that, for some reason i feel that even though shizz isn't how i want it to be, things are gonna look up soon. I guess we all just have to stay positive i guess. or as the late great machiavelli would say "keep your head up".

my only inspiration as of now is this Breezy that i'm crushing on. yes yes yes...BIG nate has got the hots for some b-word. Shoot man!!!!.....there's only one way to describe her..."She's the best!!!"-Rodrigo Nadres. I don't know man, she's like my only inspiration right now. The only thing that keeps me from being a complete zombie. Real talk. like whenever i don't feel like doing homework or going to the gym i'm like "dammit Nate, she won't like some stupid guy like you if you keep doing what you're doing, which is nothing! so get buff or get smart!....NOW!!". it's dumb, i know. but aren't we all!?!...no?...just me, huh? But yea, i've probably only said like three hundred words max to this breezy so i guess you can say i just think she's cute or whatever but i really really am crushin' like nobody's bussiness right now....and i'm so damn shy, F*CK!!!! but anyway, that's enough of that. I'm sure you guys will get a good dose of her in my blogs in the coming weeks so i don't wanna kill it all at once. But just thinking about her makes my day a lot better already...<--did i just write that!?!?!?!....how gay am i!?....i need to quit, man. "holler" at your boy.



download of the day: George Benson - Breezin